Whoa end of the week. Didnt have np today so came home rather early. Dont know whether to be glad or not, miss messing with the sec2s lol. Suf got his contacts, and so he says grey? I dont know, i see brown. Bleh whatever it is, he looks freaky now, not to say he wasnt before but, yeah. its not as if Floorball for pe. Screw'd it. I tried to intercept every ball but shot most to nowhere when i get it lolol. Sorry guys, first reaction. Bio, daamn boring. After that wanted to go meet up with marcus, ronald, suf and rin, or ernest and john at parkway, but somehow all went home so like, wtf. you dont know Went to library with garner and sid, 3a and 3b people were there studying. Watching them study is like so stress. So i left with garner after trying to study with them for ten minutes. Lol. Felt so stupid compared to them, i was studying some loser sub-bio test paper while i watch them do all the math and stuff. Went home then. its all for you. Long post for a short day. Wow.
exhausted my will at 6:00 PM
Thursday, September 28, 2006
Loool i feel apologetic and sorry to almost everyone. Forgive me if i'm not myself lately.
Well, who would know.
exhausted my will at 10:13 PM
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
But how can i try to explain. Your story never seems to stay the same. You're out of touch and i'm out of time. Just talk to me awhile, and joke about the things we used to see. Its so hard for me to smile. I've never felt so alone. After all of this there's so much left to lose. And i've taken pieces home. I promise you I never meant to.
But how can i complain, when everybody seems to know my name. You're out of luck and i'm out of line. Its such a selfish compromise, self-indulgent useless bunch of lies. I never thought you would believe. Hold me now don't wake me up. Pull me down then back up. All again for all to see. Low down whisper and guilty stare. Your stangnant beauty makes me glare. Silly games in the sun.
Loving you could be so easy. Loving you could be so great. Maybe a change would keep me high. Stop me thinking and wondering why.
why - busted
Radioblogclub's a bitch, doesnt have this song. Lol. Ask me for it.
exhausted my will at 9:24 PM
Monday, September 25, 2006
Mooondaay. Woke up with fuzzy hair looking as if i got a shock, so thought i'd come to school without wax and stuff. Then hair dropped like some mushroom lol. Oh well.
Tried hard to study in class, not too bad. Dont intend to fail maths again, just hope all my studying wont go to waste. And I know you guys are going all 'zao study so hard in the end also fail what, no use.' I know you're doing it, you bastrds.. LOL.
Anyway, went east point to get a cup of sago, then come back school. I know, pointless lol. I feel my stupidity coming back =] and then bio, paid attention, again. Chinkwee sang into miss sim's mic during class, and guess what; it came out like, static and buzzzzzz rofl.
Wanted to do art after that but then again, date due extended, so screw it. Apparently, shahnaz begged mrs jonoh for it or something. Did some np stuff with ros, john and ernest for awhile, lots picked were like, damn coincidental lol. Wanted to go parkway, then john didnt want to, so didnt. Homewhoa.
exhausted my will at 8:23 PM
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Mary belongs, to the words of a song. I tried to be strong for her, tried not to be wrong for her. But she will not wait for me anymore, anymore. Why did i say all those things before? I was sure.
She is the one, but i have a purpose. She is the one, and i have to fight this. She is the one, villain i cant knock down.
I see your face with every punch i take, and every bone i break, its all for you. And my worst pains are words i cannot say. Still i will always, fight on for you.
Mary's alive, in the bright new york sky. The city lights shine for her, above them i cry for her. Everything's small on the ground below, down below. What if i fall then where would i go? Would she know?
She is the one, all that i wanted. She is the one, and i will be haunted. She is the one, this gift is my curse for now.
I see your face with every punch i take, and every bone i break, its all for you. And my worst pains are words i cannot say. Still i will always, fight on for you.
gifts and curses - yellowcard
exhausted my will at 2:37 PM
Saturday, September 23, 2006
exhausted my will at 3:35 AM
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Tuesdays still suck as usual, seven straight periods of boredom. Well, at least we still have fun at the back of the class. The thing about beena and her tatooed monster ass is pretty funny lolol, poor suf's to blame.
So like, art after school. Did nothing but discuss exam stuff. OMFG this term's topics are so cool, I've chosen 'Forgotten'; sorta like about memories, the past, and emo shit. Yep, time to get into the emo spirit again and, i dont know, 'be one with art' lol. Okay, bullshit >.> As expected, jonoh screamed and bitch today. Was in the classroom beside artroom, she shouted like some demon to the sec4s, fking scary if its in your face.
Waited for fnn people. Suf disturbed, well, everyone lol. Wanted to go eat but couldnt decide, like 'Go siglap. Wait wait no, go tm. Eh wtf la, go simpang.' In the end, go home -.-
exhausted my will at 6:55 PM
Monday, September 18, 2006
share your sorrows.
Booring monday, end of year's coming and i'm still not studying hard. Sec2s were suppose to have a meeting today but all didnt get the message, like wtf. Lunch at siglap mac. Had some rashes thing on my arms and wasnt feeling well so decided not to go bio, or lan with the rest, oh well.
And, i know i have homework but just have no idea what to do exactly lol. Yeah, jonoh. She's gonna scream tomorrow, again.
thanks for helping me feel.
exhausted my will at 4:59 PM
Saturday, September 16, 2006
You've gone away, you don't feel me in here, anymore. The worst is over now, and we can breath again. I wanna hold you high, and steal my pain, away. There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight. I wanna hold you high, and steal your pain.
Maths remedial in the morning, actually managed to study so i guess i didnt waste my time afterall. Went straight to marcus's house to take my skates then went down to ecp with him. Seven earsticks in his hole omg? Watched people at cableski, did my favourite little slope again, and this loong flight of stairs. Wonder if there's a type of skater who does slopes and stairs and curbs and stuff, could be fun.
Wasnt long before we met up with ronald, rin, suf, amos and faiz. Suf's bike was partially sprayed green, simplesweet. So from then on, skated. Fell and got a burn, torn right through my pants lol. I left the others at around 5.30, parents.
So i apologize for this monotonous entry. Let's just say it wasnt exactly a happy or pleasant day for me. More of on the falling side if you know what i mean. Anyway, not to spread any sadness to anyone, i'll end here. Take care all.
exhausted my will at 8:07 PM
Friday, September 15, 2006
Okay, so the last two posts weren't exactly entries for a day, big deal.
Did volleyball on the field for morning, bored. Polished boots in class, tried to anyway, failed as usual lol.
So, had orals after school. As expected, i screwd chinese up. Tan bee bee gave me that bee-bee look and i was stunned wtf. Went bio for about half hour, then left for english oral, did quite well i guess. Mrs Vasu was friendly.
And so, np. Been waiting for a week already. Took the sec2s for a short drill session, attendance was bad. Taught them more on hormats, okay wtf, saluting. Anyway, neighbourhood watch presentation by mas and clarence, well done. Drilled a little again. Then had like, master parade? GOT SERGEANT RANK, silver td and 2nd class drill. Short debrief for ncos after that, ticked off by CIs again. Went for dinner at siglap mac. Home, maths remedial tomorrow which idonthavetogobutwantto. Hey, i will study.
evanescence = <3
exhausted my will at 11:59 PM
Thursday, September 14, 2006
exhausted my will at 11:03 PM
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
So I bleed. I bleed. And I bleed. I breathe, no, bleed. I bleed. And I breathe. I breathe. I breathe. I breathe. No more.
exhausted my will at 10:54 PM
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
If i gave you the truth, would it keep you from dying?
Time passed quite quickly cuz we played a fool at the back so it wasnt as bad as an average tuesday. Did riddles and such with harry and bert, typical bored-in-class remedy. Results back, dont wanna talk about it, anger stirs as i do. Met rin after class, he straight away blurted out 'GO DRAW TEH STREET FIGHTERZ SCENE'.
So we took a marker from hoori, wonder where it is now LOL. Went to my class and drew the street fighter gameplay screen life-sized on the board, as we've done before. Posed and realised that lighting wasnt good so we just left the drawing there without a photo. Lets do it again rin lol.
Art; jonoh gave us homework? like wtf. Went home straight after that, first time played dota with actual people, harry and amos omg. My brother doesnt count cuz hes weird lol. Quite fun, but it lasted for an hour+ wtfwastetime. So i play dota to kill time, that doesnt mean i'll talk them geeky dota-talk from now onwards cuz thats just, pure lame. Msn's back on whoa.
exhausted my will at 7:19 PM
Monday, September 11, 2006
Msn's down so i'm just bored now. Lol, my parents can go die now. Just came home start nagging and bitching already. Seriously, all i need from them is my money and stuff, other than that, they can go fuck off. Ahh nvm, shall not let them spoil my semi-neutral mood now. Anyway, i'm just waiting for dinner and msn to be back on. Someone tell me when its working again?
exhausted my will at 7:27 PM
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Okaaaaaay wtf, back from atc. Just like suf i wont blog much about this since almost all camps are the same lol. Fun but boring yet exciting and tiring. My group had no other bds cuz amos and priscilla and athirah didnt come lol. Only person i knew before this was khairul from bedok town; crazy slacking git whos like hardgay lolol. Alright, so fun being the atf, high rope elements. Quite cool cuz the obstacles are like two or three storeys in the air. Cant wait for next year's full day of atf for ncos, doing the other structures, longest flyingfox in s'pore wtflol. Kayaking too, we've just GOT to do it again next time. Other than that, lazy type lol.
Soooo, we're all damn tired. I should be in bed right now instead of blogging lol. No way i'll stay awake in khor's class tmr. Or Geog. Or bio.
and and, a little message i'd pass to some people, let's just say you know who you are. When you think of your past and remember that day, just think of the choices that sent you this way. Try to comprehend how the pieces fit in, realizing the enigma as the shadows wear thin.
exhausted my will at 4:58 PM
Friday, September 08, 2006
Ugh, woke up with a splitting headache, thanks alot once again. Radioblogclub's being a bitch, want to change song but the site's still under maintenance or something _|_-.- Fuck, i'm still not done packing, and it already looks like it ate chinkwee. This whole term's wasted. Okay, now what. Just hope i dont snap at someone there.
and i go now.
exhausted my will at 10:39 AM
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Uhh, just like rin, getting lazy to blog already.
Poa and english remedials in the morning, went class 45 minutes late lol, didnt know class starts at 9. Anyway, classes ended, and made my way to parkway with ernest and rin. WASSssup.
So, went there, bk. Then walked around and went to the roof carpark thing. Yeah so, me and rin drew the street fighter screen on a wall, life-sized. You know; health and mana bar, time left, special effects, etc. Then we posed, i was firing a powerbolt or something and rin was fighting back with a sword and shield lolol. Ernest took a picture, hey, should have drawn him with a killer energy phonecam or something.
Then, ernest got his track pants. Wanted to go pool, but the place was like, 16 and above. Alifi couldnt make it anyway. Soo, to the library wtf. Lasted about an hour in there? Read a few books. Okay, who am i kidding, pretended to read most of it >.> doodled abit cuz i was bored. Walked back to parkway to buy rin's navy blue laces. Then home.
And, suf's coming back from senior specs tomorrow afternoon or so, welcome back lol. I'll be going atc at ubin, hope it'll be fun and all. Hope i'm not seriously song leader lol. Be back on sunday afternoon.
exhausted my will at 9:29 PM
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Right so, been just a little busy these few days. So much for holidays, all im left with now is thursday afternoon lol.
Uhh, yesterday. An unofficial np training for ncos. Whole squad in different attires lol, colourful?. We were briefed on criterias for sergeant test and drilled a little to get us back on track. Apparently, we weren't serious and stuff so drill session ended shortly after. Went out to eat at siglap kfc after that, then thought of going parkway for awhile but was lazy to >.>
1st part of sergeant test today; theory. Went school at 8+, thought no one arrived yet, only to find 5 people already there. Then studied the theory notes, so damn confusing, 8 pages wtf, lazy remember anyway. Soo, ncos stressed over this till 10.45 then we fell in. I swear our squad has to buck up; drills, attitude and standard dropping quite badly. Did the test, might just get a borderline pass or something, hey, hope for teh best.
So, ended at 2, went simpang eat with some ncos, sat beside the dota players and im liek wtf -.- then went parkway with john and ernest. Went to the roof carpark and set our initials there on the dusted walls haha. Walked around, talked crapped bullshitted loads, thrashtalk session i suppose. Some creamy cheese pie thing before home.
And well, usually i'd go sadist but wtfno. Best of luck to all ncos for the sergeant tests.
exhausted my will at 9:12 PM
Sunday, September 03, 2006
well guess what, the world just got a year older. Happy birthday Shijie.
Hair's cut, yeah i know, like finally huh. Like the back now i guess, sorta layered-spike and stuff. Np tomorrow, and tues, and wed. Double gayness having sergeant test on seperate days >.> still, alright i guess.
exhausted my will at 8:55 PM
Friday, September 01, 2006
i wanted you to know, i loved the way you laughed. i wanna hold you high and steal your pain, away. i keep your photograph, and i know it serves me well. i wanna hold you high and steal your pain. cuz im broken, when i'm lonesome. and i don't feel right, when you're gone away.
out skating today. marcus, ronald, rin, faiz, amos and jason. met ngiam, junpeng, chunfui and some other guy from prefects. and never eat the bbq wings at waffle cafe or something, tastes like styrofoam, seriously. the other bikers went elsewhere so marcus, ronald, rin and i made our way to lagoon. on the way there, marcus tried drifting and i was addicted to this slope thing lol. fell twice, but hey; nothing ventured, nothing gained. i was alright the next ten times or so xD
drinks at lagoon. then to jetty. rode the prefects' tandem bike with marcus, skates on wtf and through lagoon lol. saw this guy at jetty who was on a damn fishing spree; 13 seconds in the water, a new set of fishes, timed. then skated here and there, marcus sat alone emo-ly for some reason, no idea why. hair at the back of my head stood like a long horn when the wind blew. beautiful sunset.
anyway, night fell, thought, went back with marcus and ronald. skated a little more before having father send ronald back. quite boring day actually, missing a few of us who were at obs, and they return today, welcome back people.
